Vicky Pattison: What If I’m Not a Good Mum?

In this deeply personal episode of 'Happy Mum Happy Baby,' Vicky Pattison and her partner Erkan Ramadan open up about their complex journey toward deciding whether to become parents. The conversation centers on Vicky’s past struggles with alcoholism, her father’s addiction, and the lasting emotional scars that once made her believe she was destined to repeat the cycle—leading her to fear she wouldn’t be a 'good mum.' She shares how she froze her eggs at 35 as a form of future security, not out of certainty, but as a way to preserve options. The couple also discuss the emotional weight of their embryos, the physical and psychological toll of fertility treatments, and the intense scrutiny they faced online—especially when sharing their journey on the new documentary series *Maybe Baby*. They reflect on how their differing family dynamics—Vicky’s chaotic upbringing versus Erkan’s close-knit Turkish family—shaped their views on parenting. Despite moments of doubt, especially after caring for Erkan’s nieces and nephews, they emphasize that their love, self-awareness, and commitment to personal growth make them capable of being parents—though not necessarily the 'perfect' ones. Ultimately, the episode champions the idea that motherhood isn't the only path to fulfillment, and that every woman deserves the freedom to choose what makes her happy.